So it is new years eve, and I am not with a family or eating good food... Taco Bell had to do... and that after hiking up a super high mountain just to see some snow - you need to see snow at Christmas in America...
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Hiking back in the dark down a steep hill with no flashlights was fun... Brandon and I started to talk about random stuff just to get our minds of the long dark trip... All safe and sound and back in society :) It was a great day :)
The past week has been passing quite well... doing a bit of homework... not too seriously... and watching the odd movie at night... The home is much quieter than usual, and it finally feels like holidays.
Yesterday we got a tree for free, from a tree lot at Bethel, because no one is buying trees anymore. We got the tree home, and then we had nothing to decorate it with. That was an odd feeling... usually we have boxes full of stuff to throw on a tree... So I took some of out outside Christmas lights for tree lights... and then found some party streamers (blue and white) in the party cupboard. I made an angel out of streamers... pretty impressive, and then made some ribbons... that does not look like ribbons... but its okay.
Later I just threw all the random small stuff that looks Christmassy I could find laying around the house on the tree... it kinda works... I also got pine cones today from the forest... they need to be sprayed... maybe I can find some spray paint somewhere :)
Otherwise there is just over a week of break left... so I have to capitalize :) Sleeping in till 10am has been good. It's going to be hard getting up at 7:30am again...
Tomorrow we are having a Christmas dinner with the Flack's (our landlords). I can't wait to eat good food, and have a sit down meal again... I loved thanksgiving, and I sure think I will enjoy Christmas dinner :)
O, and two days ago Peter and I went to Winco to buy some snacks for Peter's trip back home. Just before we checked out, a group of people (4) met us and told us they were on a treasure hunt :) Peter was wearing green, and that was the first clue that they got right the nigh. The prophecied over Peter, and encouraged him for his trip back home and the coming year. They also prophecied over me, and encouraged me about the year to come :) It is fun to have a city where treasure hunt are so common... The whole city know about them, and they actually love being the 'treasure' of a treasure hunt.
There are some crazy stories related to this, one being that a girl in the city had pain in her back. Her friends then took her to Walmart, and waited in from of Walmart for a treasure hunt group. Lo and behold, a few moments later a group approached them :) The guys told the treasure hunt group that they have been waiting for them to pray for the girl's back. The group prayed, and the girl got healed :)
Friday, December 24, 2010
Friday, December 17, 2010
Fri
Last day of school
We joined the 2nd years in the sanctuary, and all had pizza. It was the most pizza I have ever seen in one place. Insane. Then we had entertainment in the form of each revival group doing an item. Some of them were okay, others were great :)
And so the day ended saying goodbye to many people, wishing them a merry Christmas and a happy new year... kind of feels like Harry potter saying goodbye to his friends who are going home, while he is staying at Hogwards for Christmas. A few people staying around and all...
Looking forward to some sleeping in, and some good quiet times...
All you are looking for is in God.
We joined the 2nd years in the sanctuary, and all had pizza. It was the most pizza I have ever seen in one place. Insane. Then we had entertainment in the form of each revival group doing an item. Some of them were okay, others were great :)
And so the day ended saying goodbye to many people, wishing them a merry Christmas and a happy new year... kind of feels like Harry potter saying goodbye to his friends who are going home, while he is staying at Hogwards for Christmas. A few people staying around and all...
Looking forward to some sleeping in, and some good quiet times...
All you are looking for is in God.
Thursday, December 16, 2010
wed & thu
So I digressed a bit... just felt like I had to give some tidbits of what is happening at Bethel, and what I think about this place... for anyone who considers coming here... you should strongly consider it :) ha ha :)
But anyway, other than that, I have started to write more of my thought down in a mini-teaching setup... more like all my thoughts concerning a topic. The major ones that I think i can write on is love, the heart, the kingdom. I started on the kingdom... just because that is the major think that I am thinking about the whole time... how everything ties together and what is truth, and how things work (God's ways).
I feel like I need to sit down and chat to someone about all my thoughts about the kingdom... just to know what I am thinking... typing them out helps, and i think i need to do a few drafts before I can get a clear path of thought about the matter. Many things have changed about how I experience God and reality. Feelings and my view on reality has been challenged in trying to put so much truth into one picture...
A picture is worth a 1000 words... so I am busy creating a view on reality in my mind that contains everything that I have learned and experienced - all at once - without any contradiction - being able to explain and understand everything. This is a super huge task for my brain... and I feel like it is a project level assignment that I am working on.
Anyway.
My life the past two day.
Wed
I felt like I also wanted to write a practical guide to spiritually surviving and thriving in a hard environment, because so many people were concerned about going beck to hard environments. I think some practical devotional pointers would be good. Just go and spend time with God :) ha ha :)
Anyway, (my mind is distracted with all my thoughts)... Wednesday we had our revival group Christmas party. It was fun, and I was dressed in fine clothes :) I should get a pic from someone :) Good times with people :)
The day started with Burneu talking on the salvation. No one volunteered to go first... so I did (That is what I do by default in life... if no one want it, I'll have it. If no one volunteers, I do. well, only if I think that no one will do it ;) SO, I gave a few thoughts on being born again, and Burney responded with expanding on what I said - I really felt honored :) come-on :)
Then we had Kris for Q&A... I wanted to ask him a question about something he wrote in his book, and about the different kinds of love - so I took the mic first :) it was a weird day :) So I asked him about love, and he had no clue... so I asked him about what he meant in the book, and he explained it. So, nothing new... The way he answers questions are good. He does not claim to know everything, and he is open to discuss things. He also tries not to make statements, but rather go for the reasoning behind things. interesting, and good :) I learn a lot...
ok...
Thursday
Activation day. Had a long worship session, and a good time with God. Children's ministry guy spoke to us on God being a father to the lost. Then we went to groups, and Less spoke on love being what it is all about. Believing being how we are transformed. I love how he has found an answer, and sticks to it though all of life. He is a real role model. Ten we went to a family and talked to them, and prayed. I realize more and more that every person is God's treasure. Every person has so much treasure inside of them. When I see people come alive, I thrive. It is as if a different suddenly appears before me.
Today was the last day of school, and tomorrow we have a pizza party. Really looking forward to it :)
But anyway, other than that, I have started to write more of my thought down in a mini-teaching setup... more like all my thoughts concerning a topic. The major ones that I think i can write on is love, the heart, the kingdom. I started on the kingdom... just because that is the major think that I am thinking about the whole time... how everything ties together and what is truth, and how things work (God's ways).
I feel like I need to sit down and chat to someone about all my thoughts about the kingdom... just to know what I am thinking... typing them out helps, and i think i need to do a few drafts before I can get a clear path of thought about the matter. Many things have changed about how I experience God and reality. Feelings and my view on reality has been challenged in trying to put so much truth into one picture...
A picture is worth a 1000 words... so I am busy creating a view on reality in my mind that contains everything that I have learned and experienced - all at once - without any contradiction - being able to explain and understand everything. This is a super huge task for my brain... and I feel like it is a project level assignment that I am working on.
Anyway.
My life the past two day.
Wed
I felt like I also wanted to write a practical guide to spiritually surviving and thriving in a hard environment, because so many people were concerned about going beck to hard environments. I think some practical devotional pointers would be good. Just go and spend time with God :) ha ha :)
Anyway, (my mind is distracted with all my thoughts)... Wednesday we had our revival group Christmas party. It was fun, and I was dressed in fine clothes :) I should get a pic from someone :) Good times with people :)
The day started with Burneu talking on the salvation. No one volunteered to go first... so I did (That is what I do by default in life... if no one want it, I'll have it. If no one volunteers, I do. well, only if I think that no one will do it ;) SO, I gave a few thoughts on being born again, and Burney responded with expanding on what I said - I really felt honored :) come-on :)
Then we had Kris for Q&A... I wanted to ask him a question about something he wrote in his book, and about the different kinds of love - so I took the mic first :) it was a weird day :) So I asked him about love, and he had no clue... so I asked him about what he meant in the book, and he explained it. So, nothing new... The way he answers questions are good. He does not claim to know everything, and he is open to discuss things. He also tries not to make statements, but rather go for the reasoning behind things. interesting, and good :) I learn a lot...
ok...
Thursday
Activation day. Had a long worship session, and a good time with God. Children's ministry guy spoke to us on God being a father to the lost. Then we went to groups, and Less spoke on love being what it is all about. Believing being how we are transformed. I love how he has found an answer, and sticks to it though all of life. He is a real role model. Ten we went to a family and talked to them, and prayed. I realize more and more that every person is God's treasure. Every person has so much treasure inside of them. When I see people come alive, I thrive. It is as if a different suddenly appears before me.
Today was the last day of school, and tomorrow we have a pizza party. Really looking forward to it :)
About Bethel
So now that I have been here a while, I can talk about what makes Bethel Bethel. I wrote the following to a friend, and decided to post it. just because it summarized so many things for me about Bethel's culture :)
First of all, I believe that anyone would thrive here at Bethel :) There is really a family atmosphere here, and people are really free to be who they want to be, and express their beliefs without being looked down upon, but rather they are praised for being themselves. People honor you for who you are, and give you total freedom to be who God created you to be. You would think that people would abuse the freedom that they are given, but weirdly enough, they seem to settle on who they truly are. I think that they may make more mistakes at the beginning, but that they kind of get into a sort of flow of living in freedom. The leaders do watch over people to make sure that if people do make messes, that they clean it up themselves. The authority is totally into empowering you to do everything yourself, and they make you feel like a million dollars. They really call out the potential out of you, and love you more than you would ever think of loving yourself. And you can feel the love :)
I think they are more value based (why) than specifics based (what), so they have a lot of freedom, yet with strong core convictions. I think this is more a place that allows people to believe than it is a place of belief. The leaders don't agree on every point of doctrine, nor do they all have the same opinion about a matter... but the beauty is that they do not argue their differences, because they have agreed upon their core values. What each person believes is taken as their own opinion. You may be able to hear a few people talk on the same topic (e.g. honor), and each person will give you a different definition for honor. These view do not oppose each other, but rather gives you a greater picture of one topic. Three people with a different opinion on the same matter gives you a greater perspective than everyone conforming to one person's view.
I can speak more about the structure of how they run the church, put that may bore you :) If you have questions, then I can answer them...
Another thing is that they literally put kingdom in front of anything, and press in to find God's will for that area. They have kingdom business, kingdom dance, kingdom media, kingdom fashion, kingdom inventions, kingdom marriage, kingdom schools, kingdom anything. It is cool to see so many workshops filled with people that pursue the practical expression of the kingdom of God in every area of life. They keep it very practical, yet keep if God centered.
As a side note I would say that one of my purposes I came here was to be trained in walking in the supernatural. The way I thought it would look like was that we would practice, and they would instruct us. Well, the way that they do things here is totally different than I expected. Even though there is instruction, the instruction is more why based than what based (as I noted). The "what" they leave up to you. How you work it out is your own expression, and they give you the freedom to do it the way you want. There are boundaries and oversight, yet the fence is so far from where you are at, that you basically have to run to the fence to worry about it.
The leaders here believe that we are all responsible individuals, and that we are responsible for what we do with what they speak to us about. They can only suggest, but they can not force us to agree. To agree is up to us. On this point it is a funny thing to see so many people still hold to their own opinion, even though there was a talk about something in the past. But I think that that is the point... that it is not about conformity, but rather about responsibility.
If I could describe how Bethel (BSSM) operates, then I would say that it is more a developmental center (than anything else), that focuses on Kingdom truth, with a family leadership structure. They make any person feel like they have a place, in this family, no matter who or what they are.
Here we are free to dream, free to believe, free to express, free to be who God created us to be.
First of all, I believe that anyone would thrive here at Bethel :) There is really a family atmosphere here, and people are really free to be who they want to be, and express their beliefs without being looked down upon, but rather they are praised for being themselves. People honor you for who you are, and give you total freedom to be who God created you to be. You would think that people would abuse the freedom that they are given, but weirdly enough, they seem to settle on who they truly are. I think that they may make more mistakes at the beginning, but that they kind of get into a sort of flow of living in freedom. The leaders do watch over people to make sure that if people do make messes, that they clean it up themselves. The authority is totally into empowering you to do everything yourself, and they make you feel like a million dollars. They really call out the potential out of you, and love you more than you would ever think of loving yourself. And you can feel the love :)
I think they are more value based (why) than specifics based (what), so they have a lot of freedom, yet with strong core convictions. I think this is more a place that allows people to believe than it is a place of belief. The leaders don't agree on every point of doctrine, nor do they all have the same opinion about a matter... but the beauty is that they do not argue their differences, because they have agreed upon their core values. What each person believes is taken as their own opinion. You may be able to hear a few people talk on the same topic (e.g. honor), and each person will give you a different definition for honor. These view do not oppose each other, but rather gives you a greater picture of one topic. Three people with a different opinion on the same matter gives you a greater perspective than everyone conforming to one person's view.
I can speak more about the structure of how they run the church, put that may bore you :) If you have questions, then I can answer them...
Another thing is that they literally put kingdom in front of anything, and press in to find God's will for that area. They have kingdom business, kingdom dance, kingdom media, kingdom fashion, kingdom inventions, kingdom marriage, kingdom schools, kingdom anything. It is cool to see so many workshops filled with people that pursue the practical expression of the kingdom of God in every area of life. They keep it very practical, yet keep if God centered.
As a side note I would say that one of my purposes I came here was to be trained in walking in the supernatural. The way I thought it would look like was that we would practice, and they would instruct us. Well, the way that they do things here is totally different than I expected. Even though there is instruction, the instruction is more why based than what based (as I noted). The "what" they leave up to you. How you work it out is your own expression, and they give you the freedom to do it the way you want. There are boundaries and oversight, yet the fence is so far from where you are at, that you basically have to run to the fence to worry about it.
The leaders here believe that we are all responsible individuals, and that we are responsible for what we do with what they speak to us about. They can only suggest, but they can not force us to agree. To agree is up to us. On this point it is a funny thing to see so many people still hold to their own opinion, even though there was a talk about something in the past. But I think that that is the point... that it is not about conformity, but rather about responsibility.
If I could describe how Bethel (BSSM) operates, then I would say that it is more a developmental center (than anything else), that focuses on Kingdom truth, with a family leadership structure. They make any person feel like they have a place, in this family, no matter who or what they are.
Here we are free to dream, free to believe, free to express, free to be who God created us to be.
Healing #3 - YEAH !!!
Almost 2 weeks ago I got ulcers (mouth sores) in the inside of my upper and and lower lip. I received prayer, but nothing seamed to work. For the 2 weeks they did not get any better, and whenever something touched them it was painful (It was a real irritation). So last night, I was looking in the mirror (getting ready to shower) and I was thinking about how kings live (just had a conversation with Brandon Aalberts about it). Then the thought crossed my mind that "I am a king". Instantly after thinking that, the pain left my ulcers, and I could feel a shift. The next morning I checked them, and they started to heal and close up !!! And they did not pain anymore :) Praise Jesus !!!
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Tue
Had acoustic worship today. Had to leave half way to meet with John Sturges. It was a good meeting. We go to talk about feeling spiritual stuff, and dreams. Bring on the 3rd Heaven.
Had Danny Silk speak on love languages. Mine is definitely Quality time. Especially how he described it... listen to what I have to say, value what I have to say, and give me your undivided attention... Then I truly know you love me :)
We ended with our AMT. We renamed ourselves Royal flush (instead of Destroying Poverty). Come in the opposite spirit and all.
I long to have the third Heaven manifest in the first Heaven... I long for it... let it come...
Had Danny Silk speak on love languages. Mine is definitely Quality time. Especially how he described it... listen to what I have to say, value what I have to say, and give me your undivided attention... Then I truly know you love me :)
We ended with our AMT. We renamed ourselves Royal flush (instead of Destroying Poverty). Come in the opposite spirit and all.
I long to have the third Heaven manifest in the first Heaven... I long for it... let it come...
Monday, December 13, 2010
What has changed?
Yesterday I had all these thoughts about Bethel, and what it really means. I was tired, and its been a long week, so I entertained some doubts... But then I made a list of all the things that has changed in me... and then it was clear that no matter what doubts I may have, these things still remain true. (This also gave me the opportunity to reflect on the year so far, and see what was happening)
So here is my list of things that I count as gain because of my time at Bethel.
1) I have exercised all the listed gifts of the Spirit
2) I have two confirmed healings through my actions
3) My prophetic gift (seeing) has been aligned to higher truths and wisdom
4) I have experienced family
5) I have experienced an atmosphere that encourages my specific spiritual expressions
6) I have experienced spiritual mothering and fathering, and realized its importance.
7) I have sat under great and new teachings (one of the main reasons for coming here)
8) I have received many good revelations
9) I have 5 pages of prophetic words :)
10) I have gained a laptop and new camera (physical possessions)
11) I have a clear idea of the type of women I would like to marry :)
12) I have experienced the reward for brave communication
13) I have redefined my boundaries and ways of relating to people
14) I have become a feeler, and learned how to manage it, and thrive off it :)
15) I have redefined my personal boundaries and what I allow to affect me - especially in regard to how people see me.
16) I have found grace in Spiritual warfare, trails and tests - and found peace and rest in the midst of it. YEAH !!!
17) I have learned to value relationship above reason. (a tough one for me).
18) I have seen that every person carries something valuable inside of them.
This is not the most extensive list, but some of the things that are listed here a priceless. If I could go to any other place and be promised to tick of this list, then I would :)
It has been good. and I am expectant to see what I add to this list the other half of my time here :)
So here is my list of things that I count as gain because of my time at Bethel.
1) I have exercised all the listed gifts of the Spirit
2) I have two confirmed healings through my actions
3) My prophetic gift (seeing) has been aligned to higher truths and wisdom
4) I have experienced family
5) I have experienced an atmosphere that encourages my specific spiritual expressions
6) I have experienced spiritual mothering and fathering, and realized its importance.
7) I have sat under great and new teachings (one of the main reasons for coming here)
8) I have received many good revelations
9) I have 5 pages of prophetic words :)
10) I have gained a laptop and new camera (physical possessions)
11) I have a clear idea of the type of women I would like to marry :)
12) I have experienced the reward for brave communication
13) I have redefined my boundaries and ways of relating to people
14) I have become a feeler, and learned how to manage it, and thrive off it :)
15) I have redefined my personal boundaries and what I allow to affect me - especially in regard to how people see me.
16) I have found grace in Spiritual warfare, trails and tests - and found peace and rest in the midst of it. YEAH !!!
17) I have learned to value relationship above reason. (a tough one for me).
18) I have seen that every person carries something valuable inside of them.
This is not the most extensive list, but some of the things that are listed here a priceless. If I could go to any other place and be promised to tick of this list, then I would :)
It has been good. and I am expectant to see what I add to this list the other half of my time here :)
Sat - Mon
time flew...
Saturday I took as a day of rest... and rested... did no homework or anything... I still need more rest... but that has to wait for holidays.
Sunday we had church at twinview, and Bill spoke on receiving promises in seed form. Jesus the Saviour of the world was received by Mary as a baby. We have to nurture God's promises in order for them to come into maturity. God is not responsible for bringing us into our full potential, that is up to us. Finished reading Kris's book on purity. Some good things in there that I have not heard before. Even if you have 'heard it all' then its a good read... it is an easy read, and can be done in a day. Went for a walk to Lema Ranch. Heavy fog came in while I was there, and it felt like I was in some alternative swamp world. I knew the path, so I did not get lost in the fog. Was cool.
Monday prayer day. Good times. I would not mind if what I believe my destiny is would come true. All things are possible... so dream big :) yeah :) Come home, did emails, made food, and finished some homework. One task left for Wednesday... just typing up... started but would be nice to finish tonight... It is 7pm now, and it feels like 10pm. Nights are slower, and I think that I will do more homework at night... just to do something.
And God is still GOOD :)
Saturday I took as a day of rest... and rested... did no homework or anything... I still need more rest... but that has to wait for holidays.
Sunday we had church at twinview, and Bill spoke on receiving promises in seed form. Jesus the Saviour of the world was received by Mary as a baby. We have to nurture God's promises in order for them to come into maturity. God is not responsible for bringing us into our full potential, that is up to us. Finished reading Kris's book on purity. Some good things in there that I have not heard before. Even if you have 'heard it all' then its a good read... it is an easy read, and can be done in a day. Went for a walk to Lema Ranch. Heavy fog came in while I was there, and it felt like I was in some alternative swamp world. I knew the path, so I did not get lost in the fog. Was cool.
Monday prayer day. Good times. I would not mind if what I believe my destiny is would come true. All things are possible... so dream big :) yeah :) Come home, did emails, made food, and finished some homework. One task left for Wednesday... just typing up... started but would be nice to finish tonight... It is 7pm now, and it feels like 10pm. Nights are slower, and I think that I will do more homework at night... just to do something.
And God is still GOOD :)
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Thu (night) & Friday
Thu Night
So we did not end up watching a movie... Harry came back from work, and was under the influence, and ended up laying on the floor. Sean joined him, and then guests arrived. So we had a soak time, then some eats, then some spin the prophet time. Ended with us playing signs. Then people went and watched the 12am Narnia showing. So that was Thursday :)
Friday
Had Dann speak on Bible stuff, and how to get everything out of 2 John. Then we had cool worship - and people coming up and screaming "Freedom" over the mic. At the end the atmosphere shifted, and everyone felt free :) crazy times. Then we had revival group meeting. We shared 3 min testimonies, and then prayed for each other for joy :) People started to laugh all around. The rest of the day it was very easy for me to laugh :)'
I went with drew, to get a lift from Bethel to Twinview. We did some errands - checking out a new place for him to stay, and so forth, and we got some $5 Romans pepperoni pizza. We listened to sake Jake Hamilton, and the lyrics "I don't have to wait till I die to go to Heaven, I can go right now" :) Crazy times :)
Friday night was good. It is different every time, but always good. We had some resting in His presence, and some releasing of prophetic songs / songs in tongues - with a rhythm going in the background.
Rick Joiner said that everything raises and falls on leadership. This is true for spiritual breakthrough also. Leaders can create a space of freedom where children can express themselves spiritually without any fear, but rather acceptance. In such an atmosphere you grow spiritually, because you can relax yourself, and express yourself. The leadership here created such a space at the Friday & Sunday night service at twinview. It's like creating a structure, and leading by example, and then stepping away, and letting other people do the same. This must be one of the best prayer meetings that I have been to - one that mixed worship and prophecy.
Afterwards it was funny... I came to realize that this is family. I always thought that HP was my family, and Bethel was my people (same heart)... but now I see that I have two families... one at Bethel and one in HP.
I definitely feel like I am being mothered and fathered here. There are so many older Christians here, and I am really thriving off them. I would say that being mothered and fathered is the most significant experience I have here - even greater than all my Heavenly encounters put together - and even greater than all Kris' talks... and that says loads. I need to be more intentional about this...
So we did not end up watching a movie... Harry came back from work, and was under the influence, and ended up laying on the floor. Sean joined him, and then guests arrived. So we had a soak time, then some eats, then some spin the prophet time. Ended with us playing signs. Then people went and watched the 12am Narnia showing. So that was Thursday :)
Friday
Had Dann speak on Bible stuff, and how to get everything out of 2 John. Then we had cool worship - and people coming up and screaming "Freedom" over the mic. At the end the atmosphere shifted, and everyone felt free :) crazy times. Then we had revival group meeting. We shared 3 min testimonies, and then prayed for each other for joy :) People started to laugh all around. The rest of the day it was very easy for me to laugh :)'
I went with drew, to get a lift from Bethel to Twinview. We did some errands - checking out a new place for him to stay, and so forth, and we got some $5 Romans pepperoni pizza. We listened to sake Jake Hamilton, and the lyrics "I don't have to wait till I die to go to Heaven, I can go right now" :) Crazy times :)
Friday night was good. It is different every time, but always good. We had some resting in His presence, and some releasing of prophetic songs / songs in tongues - with a rhythm going in the background.
Rick Joiner said that everything raises and falls on leadership. This is true for spiritual breakthrough also. Leaders can create a space of freedom where children can express themselves spiritually without any fear, but rather acceptance. In such an atmosphere you grow spiritually, because you can relax yourself, and express yourself. The leadership here created such a space at the Friday & Sunday night service at twinview. It's like creating a structure, and leading by example, and then stepping away, and letting other people do the same. This must be one of the best prayer meetings that I have been to - one that mixed worship and prophecy.
Afterwards it was funny... I came to realize that this is family. I always thought that HP was my family, and Bethel was my people (same heart)... but now I see that I have two families... one at Bethel and one in HP.
I definitely feel like I am being mothered and fathered here. There are so many older Christians here, and I am really thriving off them. I would say that being mothered and fathered is the most significant experience I have here - even greater than all my Heavenly encounters put together - and even greater than all Kris' talks... and that says loads. I need to be more intentional about this...
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Thu
Worship, good.
Mark. I love how he brings and explains truth. I am justified by Christ. My spirit, mind and body - justified - just as if I have never sinned - all the time.
Then had Chris O speak on power & authority, and how we should always seek to reach out to the poor. And be simple about it - just tell them that God loves them - and then to ask them if they want any prayer... not over spiritualise things.
Then had a guy speak to us at healing. He imparted accelerated growth, and easy ministry. We had a choice to stay and receive ministry, or go out and minister... I chose to go... I feel like my cup is already overflowing, and drinking any more would just get me drunk (inside joke). But we went out, and we had a good time... just loving on people, and seeing them smile :)
This is freedom week, and I have been experiencing breakthrough concerning feeling things and atmospheres... it is so liberating, that I want to just do it the whole time... and I am :) and its so easy :) Its like being given a new toy, and playing with it, and just thriving :) Atmospheres are just super great :) Sensing things, tasting things... its just good...
Its like when a dog finds out that he has a nose... that's how i feel like :)
We having a movie night tonight, and watching "how to train your dragon". I just loved it the first time I saw it... wanted to get me a dragon after the movie :) So, hopefully it will still be interesting :) Usually seeing a movie the second time changes my opinion on the movie - if it was not super good to begin with :)
Mark. I love how he brings and explains truth. I am justified by Christ. My spirit, mind and body - justified - just as if I have never sinned - all the time.
Then had Chris O speak on power & authority, and how we should always seek to reach out to the poor. And be simple about it - just tell them that God loves them - and then to ask them if they want any prayer... not over spiritualise things.
Then had a guy speak to us at healing. He imparted accelerated growth, and easy ministry. We had a choice to stay and receive ministry, or go out and minister... I chose to go... I feel like my cup is already overflowing, and drinking any more would just get me drunk (inside joke). But we went out, and we had a good time... just loving on people, and seeing them smile :)
This is freedom week, and I have been experiencing breakthrough concerning feeling things and atmospheres... it is so liberating, that I want to just do it the whole time... and I am :) and its so easy :) Its like being given a new toy, and playing with it, and just thriving :) Atmospheres are just super great :) Sensing things, tasting things... its just good...
Its like when a dog finds out that he has a nose... that's how i feel like :)
We having a movie night tonight, and watching "how to train your dragon". I just loved it the first time I saw it... wanted to get me a dragon after the movie :) So, hopefully it will still be interesting :) Usually seeing a movie the second time changes my opinion on the movie - if it was not super good to begin with :)
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Wed
Had Bible today, Burney and Dann. Energy levels were low, ate some cookies, and it got better :) Then had Bill speak to us. He shared on Romans 8... just how creation, the church, the Spirit and Jesus is praying/groaning/interceding that we are revealed as the sons of God....
And how we attain inheritance thought rest.
May you become conscious of you spirit, and may you experience that you are a child of God through Christ.
Then we had small group meeting. Everyone seems to be getting tired... end of the year maybe, but also spiritually everyone is feeling it. Its time to hide in God and rest in His Presence. Abiding is our work.
And how we attain inheritance thought rest.
May you become conscious of you spirit, and may you experience that you are a child of God through Christ.
Then we had small group meeting. Everyone seems to be getting tired... end of the year maybe, but also spiritually everyone is feeling it. Its time to hide in God and rest in His Presence. Abiding is our work.
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Mon & Tue
Mon
Tried to bike in the rain... my pant worked, and my gloves, but the rest did not. My jacket was only splash proof, and I had to turn around and go back home soaking (in rain). My shoes did not dry for the whole day, and i had to put them in the tumble drying for a few minutes... make a huge noise... but some towels in to lessen it, just a bit.
Then spent my time at home, trying to get into prayer mode. It was half as good, but still worth it. I can feel much more freedom in the house after we had our house meeting. Spiritually the house is much more calm, and its easy to pray in the house, without having to clear you mind first. Spiritual dynamics are very interesting... and very powerful.
I have been having dreams more consistent, and they have been very interesting. I believe that dreams are a visual reflection of what goes on in your heart. There are times that you can be influenced by other sources, but it will be obvious - just look at what you dreamed about :)
Then we went over to April's house to make some cards for the Christmas party :) We ended up being about 10 people. We made paper snowflake cut-outs, and also wrote some prophetic words on cards to include in the cards. It was good fun.
Tue
We had some crazy worship today. People were dancing around, and God's love was SO present... it felt tangible in the air, and it was corporate... God's love is just SO GOOD :) ha ha :)
Then had Kris speak on how after baptism, the old man is dead, and the flesh is good. We are no longer mindful of the flesh, but we are mindful of the Spirit (now that we are saved). 1 john is the best. We no longer sin. IF we sin, we have an advocate. We don't have an excuse, for we are sinners no more. But God forgives us.
We no longer fight the flesh. We no longer fight the old man. We only grow in maturity (in way/manner). We CAN sin, but we don't do it naturally anymore.
cool revs... the black dog is dead... baptism killed it :)
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And then we came home, and I did some brave communication... (breathe)... it was good... it all worked out in the end :) yeah for Jesus :)
Then we went over to Matt's place, and played some Halo, and Poker.
Reuben made some awesome molasses cookies also :)
Tried to bike in the rain... my pant worked, and my gloves, but the rest did not. My jacket was only splash proof, and I had to turn around and go back home soaking (in rain). My shoes did not dry for the whole day, and i had to put them in the tumble drying for a few minutes... make a huge noise... but some towels in to lessen it, just a bit.
Then spent my time at home, trying to get into prayer mode. It was half as good, but still worth it. I can feel much more freedom in the house after we had our house meeting. Spiritually the house is much more calm, and its easy to pray in the house, without having to clear you mind first. Spiritual dynamics are very interesting... and very powerful.
I have been having dreams more consistent, and they have been very interesting. I believe that dreams are a visual reflection of what goes on in your heart. There are times that you can be influenced by other sources, but it will be obvious - just look at what you dreamed about :)
Then we went over to April's house to make some cards for the Christmas party :) We ended up being about 10 people. We made paper snowflake cut-outs, and also wrote some prophetic words on cards to include in the cards. It was good fun.
Tue
We had some crazy worship today. People were dancing around, and God's love was SO present... it felt tangible in the air, and it was corporate... God's love is just SO GOOD :) ha ha :)
Then had Kris speak on how after baptism, the old man is dead, and the flesh is good. We are no longer mindful of the flesh, but we are mindful of the Spirit (now that we are saved). 1 john is the best. We no longer sin. IF we sin, we have an advocate. We don't have an excuse, for we are sinners no more. But God forgives us.
We no longer fight the flesh. We no longer fight the old man. We only grow in maturity (in way/manner). We CAN sin, but we don't do it naturally anymore.
cool revs... the black dog is dead... baptism killed it :)
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And then we came home, and I did some brave communication... (breathe)... it was good... it all worked out in the end :) yeah for Jesus :)
Then we went over to Matt's place, and played some Halo, and Poker.
Reuben made some awesome molasses cookies also :)
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Sat & Sun
Sat
Slept in, went for a walk, scribbled in my journal, took an afternoon nap, went shopping, went to bed. [most I have slept in one day in many many years - maybe second to my life record]
Sun
Read some, went to church, half the church was under the influence after worship... it was funny... then listened to a good sermon by Kris about women and marriage. It was real good. Included man as having authority, not to dominate, but to serve and give his life away. Good one.
Then watched some american football (NFL) with Martin Flack, Harry, Reuben & Brandon. Has some pizza, and ended with some prophecy. Good times :)
I really enjoy times with Martin. There is so much I can learn from him. Generally I am loving all the older Christians here also... just to give me a picture of what it looks like to be walking with God in 20 years from now. Something to look forward to ;)
Slept in, went for a walk, scribbled in my journal, took an afternoon nap, went shopping, went to bed. [most I have slept in one day in many many years - maybe second to my life record]
Sun
Read some, went to church, half the church was under the influence after worship... it was funny... then listened to a good sermon by Kris about women and marriage. It was real good. Included man as having authority, not to dominate, but to serve and give his life away. Good one.
Then watched some american football (NFL) with Martin Flack, Harry, Reuben & Brandon. Has some pizza, and ended with some prophecy. Good times :)
I really enjoy times with Martin. There is so much I can learn from him. Generally I am loving all the older Christians here also... just to give me a picture of what it looks like to be walking with God in 20 years from now. Something to look forward to ;)
Saturday, December 4, 2010
New pics
Hi :)
I added some new pics... got a new camera :)
http://picasaweb.google.com/franslight/Usa
Its arranged from old to new... so the new ones on the bottom include the leaves in our back garden, pics from inside BSSM :) and inside in and out.
I added some new pics... got a new camera :)
http://picasaweb.google.com/franslight/Usa
Its arranged from old to new... so the new ones on the bottom include the leaves in our back garden, pics from inside BSSM :) and inside in and out.
Thu & Fri
Thu
Mark spoke on the cross, and we had some good declaration time. We had a good speaker for activation - an intern that told people to just do what they are able to do - even if its just smiling at someone, because we are not all at the same level.
Then we had guys talk about the simplicity of love, and how we should love God in people. To intentionally love people... freely.
Then we went an prayed for someone at their home that asked the church to go pray for them. We (7 of us) prayed for her and her baby. It showed me just how much people need God out there... I have so much o give to people around me, and I do not even see it. I need to see need, but also the value of people.
Fri
Had Burney speak on the old testament, and she had some cool things about the tabernacle - especially comparing it to the history of revival - how we are currently living in a time of worship and intercession - which is the very thing that happens before the veil - where after God will dwell with us.
Then we had Mark speak on the finished work of the cross (part 2). Wow... i can never hear enough of what God has done through the cross. He has made us righteous in God's sight. God will never punish or judge us again - because Jesus took our punishment and judgement. When God looks at us, all His thoughts are about Jesus - so He can never dislike us... ever. He always likes us - forever.
We had a crazy revival group meeting, with some songs, and prophecy. Good words :) Then some of us went to In-and-out burger for some supper. Came home, at some peanut butter chock chip cookies that Reuben made. Then we had a super cool Friday night prophetic worship session. So much freedom and identity. For the first time I have experience of the scripture reference if "Christ in me".
I also got prophecied over by a few people at the end... really good words again, good confirmation.
Really feel stuff changing in me, and getting established.
Mark spoke on the cross, and we had some good declaration time. We had a good speaker for activation - an intern that told people to just do what they are able to do - even if its just smiling at someone, because we are not all at the same level.
Then we had guys talk about the simplicity of love, and how we should love God in people. To intentionally love people... freely.
Then we went an prayed for someone at their home that asked the church to go pray for them. We (7 of us) prayed for her and her baby. It showed me just how much people need God out there... I have so much o give to people around me, and I do not even see it. I need to see need, but also the value of people.
Fri
Had Burney speak on the old testament, and she had some cool things about the tabernacle - especially comparing it to the history of revival - how we are currently living in a time of worship and intercession - which is the very thing that happens before the veil - where after God will dwell with us.
Then we had Mark speak on the finished work of the cross (part 2). Wow... i can never hear enough of what God has done through the cross. He has made us righteous in God's sight. God will never punish or judge us again - because Jesus took our punishment and judgement. When God looks at us, all His thoughts are about Jesus - so He can never dislike us... ever. He always likes us - forever.
We had a crazy revival group meeting, with some songs, and prophecy. Good words :) Then some of us went to In-and-out burger for some supper. Came home, at some peanut butter chock chip cookies that Reuben made. Then we had a super cool Friday night prophetic worship session. So much freedom and identity. For the first time I have experience of the scripture reference if "Christ in me".
I also got prophecied over by a few people at the end... really good words again, good confirmation.
Really feel stuff changing in me, and getting established.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Wed
Had revival group training at Marie Calendars (restaurant), had my first rhubarb pie - it was good. Then had Kevin Dedmon speak to us, and then had Dann Farley speak to us. Then Chris. Then had small group.
II was impressed with Kevin. I had some issues with his beliefs half way through reading the ultimate treasure hunt... but after coming to Bethel, I saw why he said what he said... it was theologically challenging... but now I see :)
Kevin had some good thoughts on the whole Gnostic influence on current Christianity. I believe that Gnosticism still has great influence in the church - and may be one of the biggest things that are hindering us from walking in the the fullness of God. Very good thing to study if you feel like you have hit a ceiling in Christianity.
Dann was good, and funny. Nothing really new... just had to go though some things...
Chris spoke on Ephesians our spiritual warfare & our new nature, the whole context of Romans 7 being that of pre-salvation. Good revs on Eff 1 & 2 & 6.
Otherwise I feel the call to go deeper. This week has been liberating in so many areas of my life. I have so much victory and answers to things I have fought for for years (literally). Things that no one had answers to, and no one could help me with. Now I have revelation and victory in these areas.
And in the midst of these victories, I am more thank thankful. I praise God.
But there is more. I feel the upwards call of Heaven on my life. I feel like things are on the edge, waiting to to topple over and be released. Somehow and somewhere this need to happen. May God increase His grace towards my life.
Truly, Jesus did not only come with truth, but also with grace. He was BOTH FULL of Grace AND Truth.
II was impressed with Kevin. I had some issues with his beliefs half way through reading the ultimate treasure hunt... but after coming to Bethel, I saw why he said what he said... it was theologically challenging... but now I see :)
Kevin had some good thoughts on the whole Gnostic influence on current Christianity. I believe that Gnosticism still has great influence in the church - and may be one of the biggest things that are hindering us from walking in the the fullness of God. Very good thing to study if you feel like you have hit a ceiling in Christianity.
Dann was good, and funny. Nothing really new... just had to go though some things...
Chris spoke on Ephesians our spiritual warfare & our new nature, the whole context of Romans 7 being that of pre-salvation. Good revs on Eff 1 & 2 & 6.
Otherwise I feel the call to go deeper. This week has been liberating in so many areas of my life. I have so much victory and answers to things I have fought for for years (literally). Things that no one had answers to, and no one could help me with. Now I have revelation and victory in these areas.
And in the midst of these victories, I am more thank thankful. I praise God.
But there is more. I feel the upwards call of Heaven on my life. I feel like things are on the edge, waiting to to topple over and be released. Somehow and somewhere this need to happen. May God increase His grace towards my life.
Truly, Jesus did not only come with truth, but also with grace. He was BOTH FULL of Grace AND Truth.
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