6 Oct

So the second day of school this week was cool :) I think that i finally got a schedule figured out that can work... homework in the morning, going to school early to help with chairs, eating lunch there, going to school, spending some time in the alabaster house, heading home, supper, and then whatever is planned for the evening...

We had Kris again on the prophetic... it is SO COOL to have the author there, going with you through his book... he comments on stuff, expands on thing that is not there, ans says stuff like "i dont believe this anymore... but this is what i now believe..." which is super cool :)

We tried to get word of knowledge - and maybe 10 out of 1000 people got the other person's mother's name right... then we prophesied over people... and that was good... it is quite difficult to change the way you think you may prophecy... here they have different boundaries... which is a shift that i still need to do...

And i went to a "Encountering Heaven" workshop... where they spoke on encountering Heaven... yes, they said that it was controversial... but that you have to look at what the outcome / change is that happens in your life... like being closer to God, or loving people more... judge a tree by its fruit... not how it looks like... anyway... it was good... it was the first time i was in a room full of people that encounter God the same time as I do... visually... well... i think by just going God was saying "what you have been experiencing is okay"... so i am keen to grow in that... and i think that i have a seer gift... basically God gives me visual impressions. From the time i have come here, that has just increased... the clarity and amount of visions... especially when i go to the prayer room...

* This culture is heavily based on encountering God... When you encounter God, you change... and that is what the leaders believe, and what they encourage... personally it has been very liberating... its feel like it is the first time that i am free, and also encouraged, to actually encounter God... in the past encounters were labeled as 'questionable' and 'irregular'... but here they are encouraged, and openly talked about... i am learning heaps... just because i have liberty to allow God to teach me... without someone questioning me the whole time about every detail and warning me about how i need to be careful about deception...

it is not that warning are bad... but if that is the norm, then you are keeping sheep in a very closed pen... and that is not healthy... here the sheep are free to roam. and even mess up... but the shepherds are there to help each sheep individually... and set the fences only on the extremes... and letting the sheep color their own pictures... that is part of the apostolic... and that is one thing that historically i have thrived under...

But God has his hand in everything... so learning to hold onto what is good, and letting go of the rest is the tricky part... knowing what is human cultural, church cultural, or personal preference or opinion... its tricky... but i am learning...

I don't think that i will be doing 2nd year soon... maybe in 5-10 years... I know that i am supposed to be in His People... and i will see how that goes next year... but for now, i only need to drink deep, live an open life, and step out.

God is good :)