Oct 4 & 5

Yesterday was good. Spent it reflecting on everything... took the whole morning off to do that... and it really felt good... after doing that, i felt like i had nothing inside that needed sorting out... which is amazing :) I would like to do that once a week actually... good times...

Then in the evening we were just chilling at home... it was good...

Today we had to set-up chairs at 11:45, but i arrived at 12... because that was what i was told last time... but anyway... everything was set up... and then i was in a kind of an awkward spot... but it gave me some more time to reflect :) The thing that i am meditating on the most is the following: You have to change the way you think, rather than what you think. The same applies to feelings, and anything actually... you ask "why do i feel like this" or "why do i think this of this person" even though i have no reason to think this...

well, its slowly getting thought to me... that i have to think about people in the positive light... and not always look for their faults, and criticize them... the world has enough critics, and ones that break you down... but few that actually encourage and build you up... and people rather want to hang around the latter.

Kris Valloton is speaking this WHOLE WEEK to us on the prophetic :) James Short should not know this :) But i'm really looking forward to hearing him each day... I really thrive off him :)

And Ruben wants a grant from the US government... to nuke them... he is into anti-government conspiracies... ha ha :) well.. he is not really serious about the stuff... so its more like a joke... Ruben says i should take this out... 

And today we heard about the missions trips...

My choices for missions are:

San Francisco - Outreach (poor)
San Francisco - Promised Land
Tijuana
LA Expression 58
Arcata, CA

... well finances did play a role... so i chose the local missions... and the ones that are more interesting i chose first... so we will see...

well... it seems like i will need to send out some emails to ask for some extra financial support... not being able to get any form of work legally is tight... so... ja... i'll make calculations on how much i need... seeing that i have spent a month here now... and know kind of how much i spend on food and stuff...

But i am here, and i have a place to sleep, and i have my tickets and bus tickets to go back... so if all else fails i can go on a super fast :) [only joking]... so i do not worry about getting back to SA... which is good.

cool...